Finally. Our first home as a family, with a couple of add ons of course. But the strain moving puts on my mental and physical state is unbelievable. Recently I was up until 4:30 AM and woke up with B at 6:30 AM. It's hard. It's more than hard. But, moms don't get sick days or days off.
I struggle with Bipolar Type One Disorder. The difference between the two is Bipolar One is mania based while Two is more towards depression, at least in my personal opinion after reading up on both types. So when I'm in a manic episode I feel like I can do anything, but I can't sleep or eat because I'm so hyper-focused on doing whatever I'm doing at the moment. Usually a manic episode for me entails moving furniture around and deep cleaning every room of our house.
The days are counting down until we officially move into the house. So the closer we get to said date, the higher I feel my blood pressure getting from stress. So many things to buy. So many things to pack. That's why it's so vital that I have a good support system. For me, that includes my husband and our roommates (who happen to be our best friends) my grandmother and my therapist. Communication for me is more than important when it comes to the situation we're in. because if I get overwhelmed and I can't talk to anyone about what I'm feeling or what's going on with me at the moment, it'll consume me and I'll end up losing it at some point or another.
Wish us luck as Deck the Hall's take a major milestone together as a family.
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